friendships

I don't have many fiendships, I don't let to many people into my life for fear of...
Being hurt, gossip, trust issues, etc...
So this lead me to a Christian penpal site, and many years ago(6 or 7 now), I got an email from a lady in Australia, she had a young daughter and it was at a time my children were working on Australia for a geography fair,so she and I hit it off real well. God has used her many times to teach me something. Even the fact that I began to open up to her, helped me begin to open up to others. Life has gotten busy for the both of us and we don't email as often and since I no longer have vonage I don't get to call her any more, this I miss a lot. Anyway, the reason I decided to write about Kim is because, she replied to me about my previous blog. Reading her experience showed me, I'm not alone and I'm not taking care of me, I spend so much time doing everything else I'm not spending time with God and I'm not taking the time to take care of my needs. She helped me realize that I must do these things or all areas of my life and relationships are going to suffer.
We all need daily time with our heavenly father and our spouse, children,and we need time for ourselves also and also friends.we need to do it in order and set boundaries, one wise woman told me its ok to say no sometimes. I need to learn to practice that more.

Kim, thank you for your friendship, God put you in my life and I in yours for a reason. I know when I learned you wanted more children but were afraid, I set out to pray for you and you'll never know how excited I was to hear you were pregnant and to know I was able to pray for you continuously during that time and rejoice with you all when yall welcomed Amber Grace into this world. I use to go back and reread our emails but since I deleted that first email account I can't do that anymore but many times you gave me a much needed scripture or words of encouragement and I want to say thank you!!! You were there for me during many hard times and you helped me see things differently and shared a much needed scripture many times that got me right out of my pity slump, I hope we can find more time to communicate.

I know we're all busy now but still I think of you and pray for you often. Your friendship has meant the world to me, I can't wait until the day we meet, whether here or there or in heaven.

why do mom's feel guilty

I've been a mom for over 21 years now and still find myself feeling guilty.
Do you think nothing else matters but your child(ren)? Today, I got my
step-son off to school. After I finished walking the dogs; I came back in the house and fed the dogs.
my to do list seems to be never ending, and all I want is a time to be alone and quite doing nothing. Yet, I feel so guilty as I should be doing something from my much needed never ending to do list(running all around in my head, getting jumbled together). Everybody else seems to have it all together and I seem to be doing this mom thing differently than anyone else. how do you all do it all? I teach part-time outside of the home, then I'm wife,maid,cook,mom,nurse,vet,the list could go on and on....
i know God doesn't give me more than I can handle, so I guess I need to figure out how to do it better... I began typing this and just realized God commanded us to have a day of rest, and no it's not going to church on Sunday, its having a full day of rest in the Lord. I read some Bible daily, but not like I once did. I spend time with Jesus but not like I once did; I spend time with my children but again not like I once did.... why? I ask myself and the answer is I feel guilty and feel as though I'm not good enough.... This causes my relationships to suffer; now that I figured out whats causing it, how do I fix it... How do I stop feeling guilty for not wanting to do anything at times.